This post was originally on my “What Is a Dad” blog.
Last Tuesday, MK and I got to see another ultrasound with Evie center stage. It’s so amazing to see how much she has grown over the past few months, and it’s wild to think that there are really only a couple more months until we’re getting into her glorious appearing on this earth. She’s growing healthily (something I pray for every day), and she’s even a little ahead of schedule (overachiever?). It was awesome to watch her in the womb just kicking around.
I’ve heard a lot of people say that it’s tough on the dad during a pregnancy because it’s just not the same when the baby isn’t in your stomach– and, yeah, I can see that. I can go through entire days and be absorbed in other things. God knows that there have been a lot of big things going on in my life this summer (it seems like I’ve focused more on my relationship with my dad on this blog). But I want to take some time and record my thoughts nonetheless.
I’m ticked off a little bit that Borders is going out of business. Part of me hates big corporations like Borders that swallow up the little book stores (seen “You’ve Got Mail”), but I had plans for that place. I told Mary Kate a couple of months ago that I could really see myself taking Evie to the children’s section and just plopping down on the ground and reading books. I guess we’ll have to go to Barnes & Noble now (or get a library card). We were sifting through the wreckage at Borders last Friday and picked out a couple of books for Evie: four Golden Books (“Wall-E,” “The Little Mermaid,” “The Princess and the Frog,” “The Monster at the End of This Book”) and some kind of Curious George book with mirrors in it.
I like buying books (even though we have tons of them now!) because it just puts me in a place where I’m thinking about what it’s going to be like with Evie in her room, reading her stories and making her laugh. I long for that. It’s hard not to get ahead of myself because I know she’ll be a baby first, but I still think it would be cool to read her stories when she’s a baby.
So…yeah, no daddy dates for awhile; but I’m really excited about just seeing her. I think things are going to get a lot more real next week when MK’s mom comes into town. I know that her dad’s coming some time soon too on business. Then my brother is coming in October. Then MK’s family is coming back with her grandparents. Then my mom and grandpa are coming. I think seeing their responses to MK’s belly is going to make this all so much more real. It feels so surreal right now, and I suck at waiting.
So, yeah, Evie, grow healthy and hurry up! I can’t wait to see you. Then I’m going to want your life to be in slow-motion so that you’re my little girl forever. Apparently, I just want the ability to control time.